A Question...
Jun. 21st, 2009 12:01I have what I recognize as a rhetorical question which occurred to me this morning as I struggled - and failed - to keep my voice level as I spoke to my daughter after she closed the trunk lid on her brother's head. She called out "Move!" as she closed it. He couldn't have avoided it even had he been minded to try*.
If there is a God, and I'm increasingly losing my conviction that there is, and if this Bit of Collective Fiction has in His heart the best interests of His creation, why give an autistic child to a father with anger management issues?
There's a whole lot more brewing in here, but it will keep for now.
* For the record, Jami's fine - he got bumped is all.
If there is a God, and I'm increasingly losing my conviction that there is, and if this Bit of Collective Fiction has in His heart the best interests of His creation, why give an autistic child to a father with anger management issues?
There's a whole lot more brewing in here, but it will keep for now.
* For the record, Jami's fine - he got bumped is all.
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Date: 2009-06-21 18:04 (UTC)::hugs::
I can make guesses, though. Maybe, in Jamie's case, it's so that he can eventually learn to take what control he can of his sensory environment and (finding methods for the) meeting (of) his own sensory needs to cope with/compensate for it, because you CAN'T always be in a sensory environment that caters to you. And maybe, in Katie's case, it is so that she can learn that when your relationships matter, sometimes you have to at least try doing what doesn't come naturally to you, because it's what the other person/people need from you -- and that everybody flubs that sometimes, but not everyone always tries, and that is something about herself that she can control.
::more hugs::
Happy father's day, Bill. You DO deserve it.
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Date: 2009-06-21 18:21 (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-06-21 19:55 (UTC)Hang in there, and Happy Father's Day.
Well...
Date: 2009-06-22 13:21 (UTC)I think God isn't what many of us were raised to believe, but I do believe in the Divine. I also think we are here to learn. We seem to always be given the challenges that are the most difficult for us to overcome and that seems pretty intentional to me.
The one thing I know is that no matter the challenge I am not alone in facing it, that the Divine does walk with me. My problem is that I tend to get angry with the Divine when I am most frustrated and neither listen nor speak to the Spirit which is counterproductive.
Sometimes I think that the entire reason we are challenged is to force us to turn to God in the first place.
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Date: 2009-06-22 14:12 (UTC)1 - We all choose to come through life to learn something. There is no overarching god writing the story of our life; you write your own. Seems what You and Jamie need to learn from each other has been sharply defined.
2 - God is a rat bastard, who allows terrible things to happen to good people. He allows war to be fought in his name, all the while his church preaching Love. I find this one particularly difficult to reconcile, and causes my mind to reject the common notion of 'god'.
3 - Loki rode Coyote through your camp specifically to piss out your fire. Although a vivid mental image, it is probably as unlikely as #2.
4 - Shit happens. We read what we want to read into it, be it Destiny, Faith, or Injustice. Things happen because they Do, and we bend them to fit our wants and reason. I believe this defines 99.99% of everything that happens.
But man...That .01% is killer ;)
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Date: 2009-06-22 17:29 (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-06-22 21:12 (UTC)- St. Theresa of Avila
I can't really add to that.
- Jeho