A phone call from my sister: mom

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So very strange, how a person's life and outlook can change in just a matter of minutes. When my sister called tonight from Colorado at 10:00pm (our time), I knew something was in the wind, a change coming for me and, by extension, my family.

My sister's basic message was brief: Our mother is dying, and will probably be gone within the next two weeks.

See how that works? It's a ripple effect, that change, and you, dear friend, probably felt it. I apologize if it's harsh, and I apologize for the literary tone of this post. I'm not sure yet how I'm supposed to grieve, so I don't know any other tone to take.

This story will be much longer before it is finally told. For now, I'm going to go to bed, plan a trip to Nebraska to see her one more time before she dies. God help me, I didn't expect to feel this way. It been a long love/hate relationship - mostly hate - and I expected to be happy, at least relieved, at this final resolution. It just isn't so. As I expressed to mljm earlier, it's like a leg has suddenly been removed from my chair, and now my world is kinda wobbly. I'm not ready to be an orphan.

I'll stay in touch, friends. I just thought you ought to know.

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Oh, my very dear! As you know, I lost my mother a couple of years ago so I can so relate. A bit of advice: try to make peace as best you can. It will help you down the line as you begin to re-evaluate memories and process things. Yes, it is very much like having a leg kicked out from under you.

My sister had a very troubled relationship with our mother; but her last coherent moment was spent with Kori and they managed to put all to rights in that moment. It was a wonderful thing and I don't begrudge her that in the least.

I'm so sorry you have to go through this but your loving family and your loving friends are here for you and will help with the hurting and the healing.

I'm here if you need anything at all; we both are!