Yep. Once again, my friend, you and I think similarly for all our interesting differences in politics/theology/philosophy (which I'd love to have the leisure time to sit and explore sometime!)
A truth that I faced *early* on in life is that I know I have the capacity within to kill; premeditatedly and in cold blood. In a way it's a comforting thing to know. There's no hiding or equivocating; I know that under the right circumstances I could say, "Yep, that one's gotta go." and do it. I know what my limits are and when I'm approacing them.
I've never claimed to be a pacifist. I prefer peace. I'm the most sentimental slob I know. I cry if I run over a squirrel in the car. But I know if I needed to protect myself or someone I love, that I could do whatever it took. It makes me comfortable to know that I'm in control of myself and that I have all the choices open to me.
Most people hide that fact or the potential of discovering it from themselves, uncomfortable in the recognition that "there but for the grace of God (Goddess, whatever you choose) go I."
I do feel sorry for the guy but I actually feel sorrier for the ones who continue to lie to themselves throughout their whole lives. And then they wonder why their relationships/families are not all that they wish they were.
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Date: 2005-03-03 19:08 (UTC)A truth that I faced *early* on in life is that I know I have the capacity within to kill; premeditatedly and in cold blood. In a way it's a comforting thing to know. There's no hiding or equivocating; I know that under the right circumstances I could say, "Yep, that one's gotta go." and do it. I know what my limits are and when I'm approacing them.
I've never claimed to be a pacifist. I prefer peace. I'm the most sentimental slob I know. I cry if I run over a squirrel in the car. But I know if I needed to protect myself or someone I love, that I could do whatever it took. It makes me comfortable to know that I'm in control of myself and that I have all the choices open to me.
Most people hide that fact or the potential of discovering it from themselves, uncomfortable in the recognition that "there but for the grace of God (Goddess, whatever you choose) go I."
I do feel sorry for the guy but I actually feel sorrier for the ones who continue to lie to themselves throughout their whole lives. And then they wonder why their relationships/families are not all that they wish they were.