that truly made me laugh and scared me... What is satisfaction worth? I don't know. The question I kept asking myself was, "what amd I worth"? That one became more important the more miserable I became. I vowed to be happy and give myself, my step-kids, my friends/family and the world the Star everyone deserved.
It's not easy and I'm not always happy and sometimes I'm so scared I can hardly breathe. But not matter what I am no longer miserable and therefore I have the ability to weather the storms that my emotions/fears/thoughts create.
I cannot imagine what it is like to have others truly dependent on you for so many things. I have been blessed and cursed in some ways to only have myself for the majority of my life. It has made me much more trustworthy and confident as I have grown older.
I am all for another venue. I would say anytime but the reality of our lives is that's not really possible. Know, that when we take the time to create the opportunity, I will cherish it as the priceless treasure it wil be.
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Date: 2006-07-18 19:31 (UTC)What is satisfaction worth? I don't know. The question I kept asking myself was, "what amd I worth"? That one became more important the more miserable I became.
I vowed to be happy and give myself, my step-kids, my friends/family and the world the Star everyone deserved.
It's not easy and I'm not always happy and sometimes I'm so scared I can hardly breathe. But not matter what I am no longer miserable and therefore I have the ability to weather the storms that my emotions/fears/thoughts create.
I cannot imagine what it is like to have others truly dependent on you for so many things. I have been blessed and cursed in some ways to only have myself for the majority of my life. It has made me much more trustworthy and confident as I have grown older.
I am all for another venue. I would say anytime but the reality of our lives is that's not really possible. Know, that when we take the time to create the opportunity, I will cherish it as the priceless treasure it wil be.
~S