not in a good place

[mapsedge]

I haven't posted lately because I'm just not in a good head-space and I don't want to whine through the keyboard. I'm desperately tired and beginning to despair that this is what my life is to be until it ends. Michelle talks every day about how she's getting better, but that has no practical meaning when I'm working two full-time jobs AND STILL making all the meals AND taking the kids every place they need to go. I never wanted to be a parent, and here I am for all purposes a single dad.

I'm grateful for The Machine, it's given me something challenging to do, something to get enthusiastic about. I need, among other things, to get laid. That'd go a long way to improving my outlook. It's pretty lonely here, in every sense of the word.

Okay, whining done. Don't look for it again any time soon.

Comments

[renniemom.livejournal.com]

I have no words of wisdom, just hugs, love, and a safe place to vent, whine, bitch --whatever the moment calls for. I'm sorry you're in a sucky place and wish I could help.

[eacole72.livejournal.com]

I'm working two full-time jobs AND STILL making all the meals AND taking the kids every place they need to go. I never wanted to be a parent, and here I am for all purposes a single dad.

And the single parent to 2 special-needs kids, at that.

I have wondered how you were holding up. It sounds about like I expected.

And, whine away. Everyone needs an outlet. My therapist has provided an excellent one for me.

[hurricanedeck.livejournal.com]

I can sympathize completely with your predicament. With Mike gone to Ohio to work and me left with his kids (re: Never wanted to be a parent anyway!) it has been so very tough!

[joegoda.livejournal.com]

Speaking from a gender position, I grok what and where you are coming from, as I, with the exception of the 2nd job, tend to do pretty much the whole shebang here as well and occasionally wonder how they existed before I came along.

Great sympathies from this corner, Bill. Wish we, or I, could make a trip up there. I miss Kansas and think I need to visit soon.

[duane-kc.livejournal.com]

You have an amazingly hard row to hoe there, and *not* ranting about it sometimes isn't healthy. You know where to find me if you have a need of a sympathetic ear.